i spent most of the week working overtime and not sleeping, then ran the mini-marathon this weekend. i am exhausted. mentally, physically, emotionally. i think i know now why God says He is strong in our weakness…because we actually listen for Him when we are desperate. all else has been stripped away so we can hear His voice more strongly. His presence seems stronger, and we finally realize we can actually let go and let Him care for us. all the pretenses and delusions of our own strength fade away, and we can just rest with Him.
i constantly see being tired as a hindrance to productivity, but He sees it as a way to bring me closer, a way to be with me. oh, that i could have your perspective, Lord!